Acting class humbles me.
Last week I was in a weird mental place and got there super late and just sat in the back and talked to my friend Morgan and was on my phone the whole time. I was just really antsy and tired and hungry and I hadn't had a lot of acting things happening in my life and I wasn't doing anything in class that day so I was just checked out.
So today I was glad to go again and actually pay attention. But I was running super late still - for no good reason except I stayed in bed too long and was on Facebook too much. And I still had so much stuff to do before I left and I was like Ugh, I don't even want to go. Morgan's out of town, and I'm gonna walk in late again and not get a good seat and have to sit in the back and I won't be able to hear anything. Blech.
But I went anyways, and I was late (though the roads were unusually clearer than normal), and I walked in right after the "industry talk" was over and the scenes were about to start, and what happened? It was a smaller class today and like everyone acknowledged me when I came in and was happy to see me. And this one guy was like, "Please tell me you're gonna do an audition today." And then he and a few other people started off on this tangent about how funny my audition scenes are (I find audition scenes online and workshop them in class sometimes) and which ones they liked the best, and omigosh, I mean I wasn't doing an audition scene today, but that was just so encouraging. I can't believe I almost didn't come just because I was going to be late and was mad at myself about it.
And class was really fun. I got so into everything and was really paying attention and making comments and we even got done a little early so there was time to do a long prayer time. I LOVE the prayer time at the end of my acting class, especially when the teacher leads it because I don't know, he's just really good at facilitating it I guess.
So anyways. Just another daily reminder about how important community is and how we shouldn't shy away just because we're down on ourselves about something. And also I shouldn't start thinking I'm a terrible actress just because I haven't gotten any auditions in a while. I'm really thankful I have this class, and if I have to do all my acting on Saturdays for no pay in front of my friends for the rest of my life, I don't even think that would be that bad. (The class will probably not last that long though.) (And also I do want to make a living from acting, but I just want to be a little more relaxed and joyful in my pursuit instead of frustrated and impatient, which is what I have been lately.)
So there you go. Four stars for acting class. Four stars for community. Four stars for prayer. Andddd I'm out.
